I am not famous for making New Year's resolutions and I have an even worse track record for actually trying to achieve what I meant to do. Nevertheless, it is worth my while to think about the year ahead and have a vague idea what should guide me through it.
First and most importantly for my own sanity, I need to come to terms with my involuntary redundancy and the resulting appeal proceedings that are still ongoing. It has been a messy business this redundancy of mine and has affected me quite badly. It has also affected my family added guilt to the misery of losing a job.
I had a perfect job really, I was able to work school hours, giving me the opportunity to be present for my children and have a bit of a career, too. I loved being a university teacher, I loved my students and I loved teaching. At the same time, I have thought for a while now that I would not want to be a teacher for the rest of my professional life and I have been thinking about alternative ways to keep me busy when the kids are at school (not including cleaning the house and iron my husbands shirts). Perfect opportunity you might think but I was not ready to move on. I just might "float" for a few months and see what happens. I really want to build up my confidence and learn to enjoy what I have with more joy and less worry. Having time to reflect and time to do things I love may well be the path towards achieving this.
This out of the way, I have a list of ten more or less random"goals" that are relatively achievable (and mostly selfish):
- Be more fun and crack a joke every now and then (believe me, joking in a foreign language is no easy task!)
- Shout less (this house of mine is a noisy place and shouting seems to be the normal way of communicating)
- Finish a knitted hexagon blanket that has been sitting in my basket for two years.
- Dust my cello and play for fun, badly but with gusto
- Go to a rock concert, maybe the Foo Fighters or Motörhead? I have seen the latter before and it was really great fun, old men (undoubtedly plagued by arthritis) playing Ace of Spades... In case you are wondering, I am not a leather and chain rock chick, never was but I do like a bit of "guitar scraping" (quoting my late grandfather) and drum bashing from time to time.
- Start ballet classes (funds permitting)
- Take the train to London and have a wee wander, visiting art galleries and museums
- Join the Children's panel
- Keep blogging and make more blogging friends
- Go to bed with a smile on my face
The pictures in this post were taken today whilst walking a small (tiny) part of the West Highland Way with friends and family. Maybe one day I'll add the West Highland Way to my list of things I want to do. Let me know if you fancy joining me!
And now I need to prepare myself mentally for the remainder of this week with yet more socialising (one dinner, one lunch) and family fun, the Irn Bru Carnival, a fun fair with dozens of rides, a joy for all children and adults with a strong stomach. One day I'll tell you all about Irn Bru, the bright orange Scottish Beverage. But for now, I wish you a peaceful evening. Cx