January …ing
I started writing this while cooling down in my hotel room in Kuala Lumpur. I am a thermophile, loving the heat, but the hot weather is tiring. I am coming to an end of my visit and enjoyed two days off work at the beginning. I walk as much as possible but Kuala Lumpur is big and I also make use of Grabs to get me around. This is a bit like Uber but hopefully less exploitative. I’ll tell you more about my trip when I get back. Can I just mention jet lag? Travelling that far east nearly killed me, with fitful sleep and long waking hours during the night, then when I need to get up, lethargy... I am now back, finishing this post on the day of my return, just a smidgen late (but does anyone care?)
:: Listening to “What we can know” by Ian McEwan. I loved this one. Ian McEwan, for me is a marmite kind of author. Some of his novels I loved, others I could not finish. Also listening to “Departure” by Julian Barnes. So far, I am enjoying it. I also listened to a couple of crime novels, “The wrath” by Martina Murphy (always reliably entertaining) and “A death in Glasgow” by Eva Macrae (liked the story but the narrator killed the joy of listening, flat as can be).
:: Watching “Loch Ness” on the Netflix. A grisly crime drama set in a small town on Loch Ness. Also watching the Teresa Battaglia cases (in Italian), a crime drama set in Northern Italy.
:: Noticing the other day that it was still light at 4 pm. Every year, I have that same moment of sudden realisation that it is not going to stay dark forever.
:: Loving the snowdrops in my front garden. It is not peak snowdrop time yet, but soon
:: Sewing a pair of red wide leg denims. I loved making those, using a pattern I used before with minor adjustments. I remembered the clapper to help with reducing the bulk of fabric and got the buttonhole done on my second attempt. I call that a win.
:: Knitting socks. Because knitted socks are quick to make and as a project, very portable.
:: Admitting defeat at work, telling a colleague I can’t meet a deadline. I am really disappointed with myself but there is just not enough time in the day.
:: Feeling nervous because I have to give a welcome address and two presentations at a symposium in Kuala Lumpur, on the day of my departure. Being a nervous traveler and a nervous public speaker, this gives me stomach upsets. Edit after returning… both talks, the welcome address and the return journey were smooth,
:: Catching up with an old friend I have not seen in 14 years. This was in Kuala Lumpur, where my friend now lives. We chatted so much, we forgot to take a selfie for our memories.
:: Enjoying Frankie the boisterous puppy. He has more energy than all the people in my family combined...
:: Trying to get the two dogs used to each other… there is some progress but Frankie is just too rambunctious
:: Feeling close to burnout. I got in touch with my line manager because I just have nothing much left to give. With one colleague on maternity leave, another signed off sick and a third moved on a different post, I am holding on by a thread. Travelling doesn’t help. While visiting exotic places for work sounds exciting, the reality is that it is tiring and essentially an add-on to the usual workload.
:: Being grateful to have Richard who is always here for me.
That’s it all, I am done with January. Bring on February and better still, March! Thanks for visiting 😊


Snowdrops touch me in some way. I don't recall seeing them until I was in middle age, probably late middle age when my dad had a small clump, so I think of him when I see them. There is one spot in town where I can see some, but there and at my dad's are the only places and times that I can recall.
ReplyDeleteLove your snowdrops. Travelling west to east is always harder than east to west. You will find the recovery easier when homeward bound. Spare a thought for us Australians - KL is just a little beyond halfway to us. You would have another 9hours of flying to visit. You would be welcome!
ReplyDeleteKuala Lumpur – I immediately thought of Oompa Loompas from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but no, it's the capital of Malaysia. You really had a big trip. No wonder it was stressful, and I hope you also had some wonderful moments that you'll cherish later.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself.
The snowdrops are beautiful. They're the first ones I've seen this year... here where I live, they don't bloom until the end of February and March.
Sending you a big hug.
All the best to you.
Forget the selfie and continue talking. Maybe that should be a t-shirt slogan?
ReplyDeleteThis is certainly a lot to juggle. Sigh. My busiest six weeks in years ends this Wednesday. I am relieved but also proud. I hope you find some time to reflect on all you've accomplished. It matters.
The snowdrops reminded me of another small bloom, lily of the valley, which was very fragrant. Your trip did sound exhausting just in the getting to and from, Christina, and the hot temps alone would have exhausted me. Frankie is still in puppyhood and hope that Jack and he will get along as he gets older. As for feeling burnt out, letting someone else know hopefully will help you get support.
ReplyDeleteI looked up the flying time from Glasgow to Kuala Lumpur and don’t know how you did it. I think it would have done me in. How lovely that you met up with a friend from the past. I always enjoy hearing what you are reading and listening to. I also loved the snowdrop photo and seeing Frankie. Re feeling close to burnout —I was chatting to a female medical doctor at the gym I go to and she was saying when she had made the transition to part-time hours the clinic she worked for did not reduce her patient load and their expectations of what she would accomplish remained the same.Jean in Winnipeg.
ReplyDeleteChristina my heart goes out to you as you do sound beyond weary. I do hope you manage to have some much needed rest time at the weekend and that your line manager is able to offer the support that you need, in whatever way that might be xx
ReplyDeleteI feel you jet lag travelling pain after our travels last year. Glad you were able to catch up with your friend after that long time.
ReplyDeleteThat extra bit of daylight hours makes a big difference. Spring is on the way bringing the snowdrops and other early flower colour to our gardens.
It's good that you have Richard to support you through the difficult maze of home and work life. I also hope your line manager can be of some help in supporting you.
Take care of yourself, Christina.
You need help. I hope people, other than Richard, notice and do what they can. You can’t achieve miracles (even though it sometimes sounds like you do) so don’t beat yourself up. Best wishes, Charmaine
ReplyDeleteHi Christina! My snowdrops are also just getting going to cheer up dark damp days. So long for spring and light evenings. Your trip sounds successful but exhausting - I hope you get a chance to rest and recover. I’ve just booked an even longer flight from Manchester to Melbourne in November for nephew’s wedding and am dreading the journey though looking forward to the trip. XDoris
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